Wala lang..:)

I have been planning to blog for my last entry this year but seems nothing comes to my mind. Not even a trifling kind that I usually blog.

Well, again, I am just trying very hard to say something now that I've got much time to stay here in front of a friend's laptop. hehe!

My friend Novi fetched me at home last night to invite me at her house. And admittedly, I dunno if I have to feel guilty for participating in such celebration we INC members do not commemorate though I intended not to really celebrate for the Christmas--birth of Jesus Christ as how other religions claim it. And as a part of the celebration, but I'd rather call it jamming with friends, we planned to have a drinking spree that unfortunately halted, and we went to sleep instead. Haha! Because we neglected to buy juice for chaser of course.

Right at this point, we--I and friends--are waiting for some blessings to fall, food to eat, beverages to drink and whatever may fall. haha.. Wala kasing handa tong pinuntahan namin. Perhaps, we'll go back to a friend's house later for the booze.  And, and, and...I really do not have something important in mind right now. I don't wanna think of the worries in school. Hay!! See, I still have notes to review para sa examination. And as school gets back on our nerves next year, there are the results of exam we have can't avoid to worry for. Hahaha..:))

Honestly, my family has bot yet planned for the New Year's Eve and I worry for this. Who would want to disregard the essence of the unfolding of another year? that's it. I always want it blissful and noisy as how you want it to be.

Very little for now pero naghihintay kasi mga barkada ko eh. haha

just an update

Preliminary examination is finally over! Oh, I am so happy now that I can start enjoying my vacation though my plans turned out undone. It doesn’t matter anyway, I will still enjoy the break – relax and brainwash myself for I wish to do good in school next year and ditch my unethical values I displayed this year inside the class.

Honestly, I never had contentment in my school performances since first semester. I can’t find reason why I tend to be too shiftless and really flaunted a prosaic mind – I was as if starting in school as illiterate. God! All I always wished was to get a “passing grade” instead of obtaining “high”. And know what, I should not have waited for someone to suggest me to “aim” at least to dig up place in dean’s list. Err. Furthermore, there are some who expect much from me but unfortunately, I seem to be neglectful of their attention.

Anyway, I have so much in mind right now but I remember the party I have to attend at the top floor of our boarding house. Err. Hopefully, I’ll have enough time to blog next time I open my account. And oops, one thing I want to admit is that I am running out of terms to use kaya medyo hindi na naman masabi ang ninanais – English and tagalog terms alike, nawawala sa sistema ko. Haha. Slow!:)

Thank You!

Another year is again on the horizon. -- This year of earthly journey is nearing to enclose and another one is yet to come — a continuation perhaps of the challenge God has set for each of us — and another chance to fulfill our purpose in life.

But behind the afflicting smithereens and flaws of life we inevitably dealt with, there were people and events alike that made our existence and yearly battle more meaningful and lively – things that made our lives worthwhile, colorful and complete. Have we ever said "thank you" to the ones who touched our lives even in their simplest ways? Have we expressed our gratitude to our Almighty Father, who despite our forbidden acts, still forgives, bless and loves us?

As this year unfolds, I want to grab this very opportunity to at least let everyone [who has been with me through the tiring moments, dull and joyful days this challenging life brought about in my life] know that I appreciate his/her stay with me.

Oops! I think I am not gonna recall every single name who has spiced up my life but you guys, worth an appreciation, you know yourselves!

Here I begin (but not in order):

In this blog sphere, like what I had said in my past entries, I made it without any intention to earn readers. But hey! I appreciate you guys for the time you spend here in my page.

It makes me happy to see someone reading my posts. I may not regularly receive comments posted in my entries, I know those who always have time to read my updates (those ones who personally tell me their reactions and questions regarding my entries). Co-blogger(s) and friends and every individual in this on-line world. – Norman, Hazel, Joymee, Jes, James to mention a few of my friends.

Charly, the "balikbayan" classmate who considers me as his best friend, one of the nicest guy friend I ever have, thank you for being around for me in the times of shoestring. AND AND AND, it's a pleasure for me man when you confides in me about your personal life. I'll always be your ad and a shoulder to cry on:)

Sarah Jane, my favorite "ading" who never showed boredom in my company – she loves me as a companion and I love to know this. Thank you and ilabyu.hehe:)

Former board-mates who helped me carry my things to our boardinghouse during the start of this school year.

Gurl, a text-friend who isn't fed up listening to my trivial stories (at least she doesn't show any sign of disinterest). Hehe

To one of my current board-mates who made me realize the essence of forgiving, saying “sorry”, patience, and maturity in thinking. – she inspires me to change.

To my friends, thank you for always catching me at home whenever you plan to out for jamming.
To Micky, once a best friend, man, I really thank you for pushing me away. It was the best thing you ever did as a favor. Thank you so much! I care for you kuya.
And most especially, I dunno if I am allowed to mention his name. To my biological brother who financially supports me and shoulders all the expenses in my education. YOU ARE THE BEST BROTHER IN THE WORLD. I LOVE YOU KUYA...:)
To Mr. RL, we may not personally know each other, but I want you to know that I am happy for your "company. Thank you for making me feel simple thrills.:)

PS: sa susunod na lang yung iba. I have to finish my ledger entry, trial balance and chart of accounts.

Tips on how to study accounting effectively

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"THE CPA IS YOUR

LICENSE,

THE WORLD IS YOUR

HIGHWAY

AND YOU CAN DRIVE

ANYWHERE."

-HUBERT GLOVER-

HERE ARE SOME OF THE TIPS CONVEYED TO US DURING ONE OF THE SEMINARS HELD IN SCHOOL.

SCHOOL OF ACCOUNTANCY

TIPS ON HOW TO STUDY ACCOUNTING EFFECTIVELY

HOW TO STUDY ACCOUNTING

A. READING A TEXTBOOK

1. STUDYING ACCOUNTING IS NOT LIKE READING A NOVEL OR EVEN LIKE STUDYING HISTORY, SOCIOLOGY OR ECONOMICS.
2. READ TO UNDERSTAND “WHY”
3. WORK PROBLEMS TO UNDERSTAND “HOW”
4. REMEMBER “WHY” AND “HOW”
5. IF THERE IS SOMETHING YOU DON’T UNDERSTAND, PREPARE A SPECIFIC QUESTION TO ASK YOUR INTRUCTOR.

B. WORKING HOMEWORK PROBLEMS

6. READ THE PROBLEM.
7. WORK THE PROBLEMS WITHOUT “PAGE FLIPPING” BACK TO THE CHAPTER.
8. KEEP UP WITH THE CLASS.
9. NOTE THE PROBLEM WITH WHICH YOU HAVE DIFFICULTY AND ASK QUESTIONS DURING DISCUSSION.

C. PREPARING FOR THE EXAMS

10. BE SPECIFIC IN YOUR STUDY; CONCENTRATE ON THE THINGS WHICH SEEM IMPORTANT
11. DO NOT STOP WITH JUST “GETTING THE IDEA”
12. EVERY EXAM HAS AN ELEMENT OF SPEED.
13. WHEN TAKING EXAM, MANY POINTS ARE LOST AND QUESTONS MISSED BECAUSE THE STUDENTS DO NOT “READ THE PROBLEM”.

• QUICKLY LOOK THROUGH THE ENTIRE EXAM AND ANSWER ALL OF THE QUESTIONS THAT ARE EASY FOR YOU.

it helps

I had so much thought in mind yesterday. I wanted to scribble them down but as I face the computer unit and opened the Microsoft word, they were gone. It's actually happens most of the time I have significant ideas and I have no choice rather than writing trifling and weird ones. I cannot appreciate this and coping with it sometimes drives me crazy and freak out. So what I did yesterday to lessen the stress, I set aside what I wanted to write and check mails, spoiled my time in facebook etc. after an hour, I decided to take my dinner. I wasn't satisfied with my meal but since two orders would surely burst my stomach, I left the restaurant with my stomach still needy.

I couldn't make out what I wanted at that very point of of my life; I couldn't grasp any worthwhile thought, and it really made me cranky. Unexpectedly, I found myself browsing the bible and slipping through the pages of the book of Genesis (meaning of it is origins or beginnings). I started my readings at chapter 12, “Tinawag ng Dios si Abram”. But I couldn't stand my craving stomach so I went to ask for Charly's comnpany. Another problem was that I couldn't specify what I wanted to eat so we agreed to stroll until we ended up choosing one of the coffee coolers. Then after having some refreshment (instead of snack), we went back to our respective boardinh houses.

I went back to my readings, and followed chapters 1 to 4 of the same book, about the creation theory and some others. In that siutuation, I realized how enlightening it is to read words of God. I had always ignored this stuff before and believe it or not, I would always get the lowest score when it comes to bible quizzes. Last friday, err. It really helps, this is all I wanna share for now.:)

Disaster day and my wish..:)

This day…

This day… well, went as just how my day usually goes, I think it’s appropriate to call it a disaster day! Ha-ha! I’m gonna start narrating from the very first second of it.

The morning disarray that greeted me as I opened my eyes this morning is still so clear in my mind's eye. Firstly, the thought that my assignments I hadn’t yet finished which should be submitted this day forced me to get up early and prepare for school. Plus it was my duty to clean our boarding house! All I could utter was “SHIT”!!!  Secondly, in my very first subject for the day at 10:00AM, our instructor gave us a surprise quiz—BIBLE QUIZ! Ano’ng alam ku doon? I admit I got zero!!!! I left all the test questions unanswered but still lucky I was for we all got zero. Ha-ha. The instruction was: “mind your own paper” but some of my classmates were noticed to be comparing their answers to others. Simple follow they cannot instruction! Ha-ha! Thirdly, I was at Apo Pilo e-library finishing my work in science, when I was about to print the output, power went out. Grr…

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And anyway, I am, too, inspired to write about my wish list for I observed that many of my co-bloggers already posted theirs. Ehe! My wish list not for Christmas but for NEW YEAR. Ha-ha. Maybe you noticed that I say “WISH” instead of new year’s resolution (la unay!), discover the reason yourself—if you know the difference of the terms “resolution” and “wish”, then I bet you figure out what I denote.

There’s one thing that sums it up. It is to treat my studies seriously. I wish I could change and shun all my unethical habits regarding school as this year comes to its end—I should not be texting inside the class; I should avoid having my snack during lecture to mention some. Hehe. Patago naman po yan.

This is all for now. Next time ulit.

What do you wish for Christmas?

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December 25^th is nearing, I know very well that many of you folks out there already made a plan for this Christmas vacation as many Christians call it. Especially for the 25^th day of this month where you guys will be celebrating Jesus Christ's birthday. Being in the INC church and unaware of I dunno if those are mostly catholic doctrines and beliefs, I still cannot comprehend why my fellow Christians make such a celebration even though they know that it's not the exact birth date of JC, and they can't even find one that proves his real birth date (they claim so).

Err.. I just hope, no one would censor me in my straightforward statement.

Once in our impromptu speech in our English 1b subject, I was asked asked, “What do you wish for Christmas?” I requested for another question since we really don't celebrate Christmas but when I had answered the other question given to me, I found myself recurrently going back to the question, at the back of my mind at least. I wanted to answer it. Very selfish and personal wishes actually pero hindi naman material lahat. Hehe!

If ever I would be granted a wish, I wanna own all the things I wish of having—laptop, car, phones etc for material things. Non-material naman, akin na lang yun. Haha!

Ikaw? What do you wish for Christmas?

i can't decide

I was walking back to my boarding house, as I turned to the quatervois I had to take, someone who was behind me uttered a greeting, “Hi Pen!” then I turned around to see who was it—one of the lasses I just met somewhere—then another shouting voices, “Pen! Pen!”, oh my friends were calling me even they're on the other lane (as they habitually do when they see me).

And as I would always do as a response, I strode over to where they were and didn't notice that a car was coming. I was almost hit! Thanks God for the car stopped right on my face. People were shouting in worry. What a shame!---Haha! This scene is what I exactly imagine whenever I walk down any street.

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Been planning to make an update but so unfortunate of me that I really dunno how to form all the things I have in mind. It's like I am staring into the nothingness of the sky with my absent mind. I hate this!

All I can share now is the decision-making process I am into. It's about my major subject, Accounting 1. Like what I had mentioned in one of my earlier posts, our professor Mr. Eduardo Susi who happened to have stimulating strategy in delivering his lectures, will soon be replaced in his schedule to our class. I had this idea of transferring to his first class at 7-8:00AM. The problem is that I would not want to race (in the use of bathroom) with my board-mates who also have 7AM classes , especially with the two medical students who often have hospital duties at daytime. I have made up my mind, I'd like to try our new instructor, if I would click in her ways, then no need to follow Mr. Susi. Hehe!:)

Sa tingin mu, ano?

Kikinig yan ng "KUNG AKO NA LANG SANA":)

Kagagaling ko lang kila Sarah, one of my classmates na vibes ko, kasundo, kasindaldal at kung anu-ano pa.

May nagtext sa’kin na new number, sabi:

“musta kayo jan?”

Ako:sino to?

Texter:Ate Shasha mu to.

Hayun! Si ate pala. Ugh. Nonsense ba?

Nah! Ganito kasi, sa tinagal-tagal kong nawalay sa sis ko, pati sa iba pa naming kapatid, di man lang ako makaalalang mangumusta o kung anu pa man. Kung napapatext man ako sa kanila, iyon ay kung may kelangan ako. Hay! Sabi nga sa’kin ng bunso namin minsan, “Saka ka lang naman mag-text kung may hihingin ka.” Tawa lang ako sabay sabi ng, “Wala nga akong ibang sasabihin, bakit pa ako magte-text?” sama nu?

At sa conversation namin ni Sarah, naisingit ko yung tungkol sa best friend kong si Joy. Best friend ko for more or less 15 years now (she’s 19 and m 20). Feeling ko kasi anlaki na ng aking pagkukulang. May time ako sa not-so-close barkadas, jamming, shot shot with kakilala lang at kung anu-ano pa man. Pero sa kanya? Ewan ko ba. Matagal-tagal na din kaming walang communication at hindi nagkikita dahil sa nasa work siya sa ibang lugar at nag-aaral naman ako. These past few months, di ko pa maalalang ako unang nagparamdam at nangumusta sa kanya. As in hihinrtayin ko pa talagang siya ang una magtext o magpa-ring sa number ko, at pagkatapos ng isa hanggang tatlong reply, dedo na naman komunikasyon namin ng ilang century.:)).. Medyo mahaba-habang usapan na namin yun aabot ng lima o sampung replies sa pagkukumustahan. Naitatanong ko nga, “asan ang essence ng firendship namin?”, at dahil napi-feel ko talaga na may pagkukulang ako na di ko naman alam kung papanu makakabawi, naiisip ko nalang, “Ano ba talaga ang pagkakamali ko?”, “Ako ba tong may kung anung problema?” Di ko din mahanapan ng kasagutan ang mga simpleng tanong na yan saking isipan pero isa lang naman ang masasabi ko, hindi siya mapapalitan bilang “bestest” at “truest” friend ko. All my life, di pa ako nakakita ng taong tutumbas sa pagiging totoo niya as a friend. PERO sa tingin mo, may mali ba sa’kin?

Kung sa loob ng pamilya naman namin, sa mga kapatid ko, di ko idedeny na mas may time pa ako sa barkada at kung anu-ano pang walang-kwentang (nga siguro) libangan. Kung may matatanggap man silang text galing sa’kin, asahan nilang ang laman, “Dy, padagdag ng allowance.” O di kaya naman “Pambayad ko ng ganito o ganyan.” At kung mga kapatid ko ang itetext ko, “Pakisabi wala na akong allowance.” Hay! Kung ikukumpara mu naman sa pakikipagpalitan ko ng text sa mga di ko naman close na barkada, kukulangin pa ata ang isang araw na balitaan ng mga walang kwentang pangyayari.

Saan at ano ba talaga ang malin sa ugali ko?

PS: pasensya, di ko talaga alam kung papanu ilabas ng buong buo yung nasa isipan ko.

Who Owns My Heart

Who Owns My Heart

I have had this feeling for more than a year now and I don't want to recognize it as love but infatuation rather. I may be silly to take it as a problem but honestly speaking, dealing with it isn't that easy for me. Sometimes, I tend to lose concentration in the things I must put first--reviewing notes and other school stuffs. I even find myself floating in reverie at times and I can't appreciate it. Maybe I am just being negative to see him in a way he is really not, that he resembles the guys who are used to taking advantage of girls--paranoid--but how would I learn to trust again if in the first place, men, guys like him were the ones to give me reasons not to trust again? In fact, I know the rules and lessons in being in love, I can give advice but how come that I can't act in accordance of the words that come out from my lips?

And the worst of it? I want him to be my last guy. Yes!! You read it right. haha..

Disappointed

Nothing significant comes to my mind.

But trying to grasp what the innermost part of my thinking mind says.

I have been in this state for few days.

I so hate this feeling.

I feel like I have done nothing good for my studies and in all aspects of my being.

Last week, our Accounting professor announced the schedule of our first ever minor exam. We had the exam yesterday. Being so confident, I did not review the lessons we had discussed. And being so inattentive during lectures whatsoever, I wasn't acquainted of the contents of the exam. I thought it was pure analysis—value received and value given away, that kind of thing—I ignored the acronyms mentioned in the lectures and even the statements and facts about accounting. Whew!!! Only to discover that those things I ignored were of majority in the test items.

Then this morning, I crossed path with my former classmate who happened to have checked my test paper, he told me that I got 50 something out of 100 items. Ayun! Kinda' disappointing. But I know that it was the result of my performance in this particular circumstance. Nakaka-frustrate!

You know guys, being out of school for three years was a real challenge. Looking at its positive view, it was the time that I realized the need of going to school, the desire to earn a degree to mention some. But you know, now that I am back to being a student, I feel like I am starting again as a K1, and maybe worse, as growing infant who's taught by a mom. I really hate it! Adjustment? Maybe. It's so hard. Sometimes, I even think that I cannot move on to this predicament anymore. That I will be in this state forever—confused and seems illiterate! I wouldn't want to be like this, but neither would I dream of leaving school again.:(

PS: mamaya ulit... may klase pa ako. Sa fourth floor pa.

I will be Mrs. ______ ..:)

Here in Bayombong again.
Wee!!! We will have quizzes tomorrow. First ever written outputs.
Ayee!!! After a tiring travel from my place to here, I still managed to update my blog.
Hmmm... Just can't get over with this intriguing chain question friends sent to me:


"Someday I wanna be Mrs. ______."


Bilang may pakisamang nilalang at marahil dahil "infatuated" ako ngayon (actually matagal na din), sinagot ko naman. Saya-saya ko kasi inaasahan ko ding interesado siya sa'kin at parang magiging close din kami. Ambisyosang nilalang talaga ako eh. Haha!
Manhid siya. Napakamanhid!!!!
I really WANT him, LIKE him but I ain't sure if I already LOVE him. aha!!
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Eto nga pala.


I already have John Grisham's THE PELICAN BRIEF.
It's actually been handed to me by a friend for four months now, I think.

Sa wakas mababasa ko na din. Bale dalawa palang nababasa kong obra ni J. Grisham. Pangatlo to.:)

yesterday...

HIGHER UPS...(at around 8:00)

Last night, there was a meeting convened at the top floor of our boerding house. Our landlady recounted before us the new rules and regulations we must comply with in regards to Saint Mary's University (the school I/we attend) scheme. I honestly don't know how to call it. He-he! Higher ups, I mean some of the university's employees (the dean of women, VP acad actually, and even the university president) make a semestral inspection of all lady marian's dormitory to see if we, students, maintain or adapt the CHSF (clean, healthy, safe and friendly environment) and 4C's, which are included in the mission and vission of the institution.

They also capitulated to us the plans they have set for the coming christmas party. Why higher ups? It was the word for the night. There was this instructor, our landlady's friend, who planned for the christmas party, kept on using the word. Wala lang..:)

FAREWELL....(5:30)

Our Accounting 1 instructor already said hid goodbyes yesterday before he started the lecture. There will be someone from allied bank to take over his schedule to us. Awh! My classmates felt so sad when they heard his farewell. We'll surely miss him. Pero ako naman, ewan ko kung anu nakain ko at jolly na jolly aku that time. I even jested, “Ayaw mu lang yata sa'min Sir eh?” But he kept on talking about our new instructor and mentioned her name. Ako naman si bingi. “Sir lalake ba?” Tapos sabat netong kaklase ko, “Jocelyn nga eh, lalake?” Then “Lalake sana mas maganda.” 'kako. Ayun!!! Bunch of laughter exploded in the whole room. Akala siguro ng mga kaklase ko, naghahanap ako ng wafung propesor. But nah. Mas wala lang talaga akong hiya 'pag lalakeng guro. Pero marahil, nagkataon lang na hindi istrikto yung mga former teachers ko. And it's not to brag up naman, I had always been “Sir's” favorite back in elementary and secondary. Not that may utak ako kasi run-of-the-mill student lang talaga ako pero dahil maingay ako at walang-hiya, di naman tamang sabihing brabo kasi pagdating sa mga competition tameme lang ako. Tama na mga ang pagyayabang.

Seriously, i'll miss Mr. Eduardo Susi, our Accounting 1 instructor. Motivating kasi yung strategy niya sa pagtuturo. If you only witnessed my classmates reactions yesterday, makikita mo talaga sa facial expression nila na malungkot. Imagine, nagfa-fuck-aaktibo ang buong klase in all the exercises under the course eversince. The way he talk, he explains the lesson, mamomotivate ka talaga. We don't feel any sign of boredom pag siya na nagtuturo. Ayoko nga din talagang umalis siya eh pero di ko din naman sinabing ayoko yung papalit sa kanya. He-he! There's something to look forward to. Pero may possibility talaga na magiging unmotivated na naman kami sakaling mapalitan nga si Mr. Susi.

Hopefully

Another tiring school day is over. Just want to share the joy I am in now.

I am so inspired…

Motivated…

Directed…

And it’s a blessing…

I feel so blessed…

We did some accounting stuffs this night and I did my work so enthusiastically. Whether or not what’s happening to me is a miracle, I feel like celebrating for it. I am so happy for this.

I would want to call it a gift which would bring out my strength, faith in what I can do and direct me in my race.

Hopefully, it will be the beginning of serious effort.

Hopefully, I won’t be wrong in my outlooks of this sudden change.

Hopefully, I can’t be wrong in seeing this as an opportunity—opportunity I have to grab, and opportunity that would bring me to success.

I might encounter failures in my way ahead but….

Hopefully, this inception would bring out the best in me.

Hopefully, it is now the answer of my prayers—motivation.

I believe though that in education, it is still best to let yourself learn.

Being in college, we encounter more thorough and harder learning process than what we had witnessed in primary and high school, but letting ourselves become mature in thinking and in doing will be the solution to pass this chapter of our lives.

We may encounter problems, trials and slip-ups in the future, but may those ingredients of life help us grow, stronger and more determined to go on in this earthly journey.

This is all for now.

‘til my next post.

yesterday...

HIGHER UPS...(at around 8:00)

Last night, there was a meeting convened at the top floor of our boerding house. Our landlady recounted before us the new rules and regulations we must comply with in regards to Saint Mary's University (the school I/we attend) scheme. I honestly don't know how to call it. He-he! Higher ups, I mean some of the university's employees (the dean of women, VP acad actually, and even the university president) make a semestral inspection of all lady marian's dormitory to see if we, students, maintain or adapt the CHSF (clean, healthy, safe and friendly environment) and 4C's, which are included in the mission and vission of the institution.

They also capitulated to us the plans they have set for the coming christmas party. Why higher ups? It was the word for the night. There was this instructor, our landlady's friend, who planned for the christmas party, kept on using the word. Wala lang..:)

FAREWELL....(5:30)

Our Accounting 1 instructor already said hid goodbyes yesterday before he started the lecture. There will someone from allied bank to take over his schedule to us. Awh! My classmates felt so sad when they heard his farewell. We'll surely miss him. Pero ako naman, ewan ko kung anu nakain ko at jolly na jolly aku that time. I even jested, “Ayaw mu lang yata sa'min Sir eh?” But he kept on talking about our new instructor and mentioned her name. Ako naman si bingi. “Sir lalake ba?” Tapos sabat netong kaklase ko, “Jocelyn nga eh, lalake?” Then “Lalake sana mas maganda.” 'kako. Ayun!!! Bunch of laughter exploded in the whole room. Akala siguro ng mga kaklase ko, naghahanap ako ng wafung propesor. But nah. Mas wala lang talaga akong hiya 'pag lalakeng guro. Pero marahil, nagkataon lang na hindi istrikto yung mga former teachers ko. And it's not to brag up naman, I had always been “Sir's” favorite back in elementary and secondary. Not that may utak ako kasi run-of-the-mill student lang talaga ako pero dahil maingay ako at walang-hiya, di naman tamang sabihing brabo kasi pagdating sa mga competition tameme lang ako. Tama na mga ang pagyayabang.

Seriously, i'll miss Mr. Eduardo Susi, our Accounting 1 instructor. Motivating kasi yung strategy niya sa pagtuturo. If you only witnessed my classmates reactions yesterday, makikita mo talaga sa facial expression nila na malungkot. Imagine, nagfa-fuck-aaktibo ang buong klase in all the exercises under the course eversince. The way he talk, he explains the lesson, mamomotivate ka talaga. We don't feel any sign of boredom pag siya na nagtuturo. Ayoko nga din talagang umalis siya eh pero di ko din naman sinabing ayoko yung papalit sa kanya. He-he! There's something to look forward to. Pero may possibility talaga na magiging unmotivated na naman kami sakaling mapalitan nga si Mr. Susi.

Feel BLESSED

Just got back to school and went straight here at e-library. Will transfer to Apo Pilo when my time credit is up.

I ain't feeling well. Seems like fever is going to hit me at this point. Wnew!!!

Can't forget the gal I passed by a few minutes back. The stout school girl who was as if examining me from my head to shoes. Shit! naiinis talaga ako. Tignan ko din kaya pataas-pababa.

Ugh..!

Wala akong maisip. School matters really gets on my nerves. So depressing to think of and do too seriously. I am not used to reading educational books but it's a part of being in the School of Accountancy. Mi gulay!!! Kelangang mag-adjust.

Tama na muna ang reklamo...

Yesterday, when I was about to log out my FaceBook account, I remembered to search for our NSTP instructors name for she asked us to add her on our friends' list. When I was done clicking the "add friend" button, I found myself typing another name. My childhood best friend's name--Jessa... Perhaps, still hopelessly hopeful. I dunno if you understand the feeling. Almost gave up searching but I am really eager to know her again. Imagine, been looking for her on the internet for a more than a year now then I unexpectedly found myself searching for her name again yesterday. Pramis!!! Blessing yun. Halos maiyak pa ko. When the result appeared, I told myself "wala talaga". Then there, di ku akalaing di pa rin nagbabago mukha niya after a good 13 years now. Sent her a message pero gang ngayon la pa reply. Anyway, we were best friends (I dunno if she still considers me as one up to now) in the year 1997 when I studied in West Central School in Pangasinan. We parted ways when I asked my parents to bring me back in Quirino, my Mom's place, where I continued my primary education.

There are lots of memories worth looking back to in those times we were together. Iiyak na ako.. ahaha!!

Til here muna. Lapse na credit ko eh.. take care folks!!:)

LOVE OF MY LIFE

I have met this man of my dreams—more than 10years ahead of me who already enjoys his profession as a teacher and in the process of his business venture. We are now four months in our more than friends but less than lovers affair. I remember how contented I once was. Later on, everything turned the way I least expected them to be. The affection slowly faded away, the longing eradicated from my system and simply, the love I once had with him turned out to be something I cannot appreciate anymore. He is the first man who ever let me realize the pain of being untrusted, doubted and even though he exaggerated his negative views about me, he doesn't fail to give me simple thrills from his simple lines of praises. Above all his shows of affection and doubts, he lets me discover myself more. As he once put it, "You have many men. How many f***ed you? You deserve not to be trusted and loved." I am very particular that you bet how I felt upon hearing those words from someone not-so-dear. Yeah! It made me rage in deep flare. But it's not wrong to have doubt for I believe that trusting and believing without any doubt is being blind, blind love for the one we adore. I also reflected on his doubtful line, it's true that I never entered any serious relationship since I had my first, three years earlier and although I can pretend that entering one again is not on my list, I simply cannot deny in myself that I have been waiting for one in this early age. Admittedly, I have had more or less 20out-of-commitment affair with guys ranging from July 2007 up to 2009. I hoped that "THE ONE" could be one of them, I set no qualifications and tried everyone who were halfway of my ideal man. As many of you guess it, those were kind of game. And the loser? It's me. I expected something beyond what circumstances could grant me.

This man I am talking about visibly doesn't trust me, however, he still remains as the man I like—the man in my dreams. All he guaranteed me is the lesson I have learned only from him. That there is a right time for love. Lo9ve can wait. Whatever! But it's the greatest thing I have to thank him.

Well, life really goes this way. Seems unfair but it's where thrills of emotional aspect of life comes from and certainly, we cannot expect it to be the way we want.

PS:

hindi ko pa rin pala talaga kayang mag-open dito ng tungkol sa totoong problema ko..:(

another challenge

School circumstances have been so uncompromising for me or maybe I just have an uncompromising disposition that worth the blame. I keenly bring to mind the hurry-scurry outset of my second semester. I know that I can’t reproach somebody or a thing for being too unprepared during those first three days of school but I hardly make out what I should have done or what I misguidedly done that brought about immense aggravation.

November 2, Tuesday, I was so enthused in making a précis of my Accounting subject as a component of my scheme for this semester but then, my phone beeped. I thought it was just another frivolous text message I frequently receive. It was a note from Sarah, informing me about the start of classes—November 4 which is far from November 15 as what I expected. This handed me pressure for I had to pack my things and travel back to Bayombong at full tilt. My God! I just started off systematizing my plans for school concerns. As anticipated, pressure wrenched my physical and mental verve. Battling with this tricky situation is a serious matter for I know that I should push back and not let my endeavors be outdone.

I recently read a line from a book that emotions are more powerful than excellence (I am a typical student). Interrogating the subject matter, I asked myself, “Would it be possible to fight emotions and let my philosophy in all aspects of life, or at least, for some, overflow?” I am gonna find the answer myself—sort of self-discovery. I am certain that what overpower my intellectuality—especially when it comes to decision-making—are my emotions. I set forth almost everything that satiates my nonsensical indulgences.

To sum it up, it is just one of the challenges of my self-fulfillment and at the same time, self-discovery, for my self-improvement.

Here are the factors I have set up and will try hard to make it a customary to adhere.

o   “Wala ng bukas.” –doing what is must for the now.

o   Study first before anything else. –of course, this rule has an exception. I must put God first before anything else. It would alter my time to blog but it doesn’t matter as long as it will help me reach to where I should be.

o   Take time to read. To become a wide-reader I think is compulsory in the sense of wanting to do well in my chosen line.

o   Meditation. I am the type who spoils much time in mulling over any circumstances. However, there should be time-limit. I’ll do it at least when situation requires it.

Hard-work, perseverance and strength of mind will do!

Oh! I’ll miss everything in this world—FaceBook, blog, networks, everything!

‘Til my next update.

this day

This is such a wonderful day! Wee!!! We had an impromptu speech in our English 1b subject, tapos na ako last week pa, voluntary ang pag-recite and even marked “VERY GOOD” (caps-locked pa talaga nu?). A classmate had pulled out a piece of question that went like, “What is an ideal woman for you?”  After he declaimed, I asked our instructor, “Ma’am, do you believe that an ideal man or woman can be made?” She seemed not to grasp the question so for clarity, “An author said that one can make his or her ideal man or woman.” She threw me another question, “What is your ideal man?” Of course, I am always true even in not-so-serious discussions. I honestly and proudly answered, “Mapute, matalino , matangkad—at least 5’8”, hindi baduy at ayoko ng masyadong seryoso.” Then there’s this Mr. M.M (matangkad at maputi) in the class. Pinapansin ba naman. Tumayo tapos kantyawan, tawanan mga klasmeyts namin. Pero isa lang naman tong nakakatuwang nangyari this day.

Yun lang naman. But here’s one of the changes in my usual routine that I should have started but just planned to begin on Monday.

Darating na kasi yung libro namin next week. Kelangang magbasa-basa so I will have to minimize my time in blogging and in all the stuffs similar to this.

Bale, weekly updates na lang ang gagawin ko.

Heto naman yung wish ko for myself, ang kayaning magseryoso sa pag-aaral..:)