Pen, the STUPID LOVER

It was an insane decision to go in a place just to meet a guy. But for fun's sake, I once did it.  I remember that one hot sunny day of March in 2009, I went to a place that was unfamiliar to me--especially the faces there, not even a single smile would lighten my feelings as an alien to that particular town of Nueva Vizcaya. One thing I am sure of is that it was such an unforgettable moment I have in the past. It wasn't the guy I was there for but for another guy who had contributed much in my life, who has been spicing up my mood, this guy who, at very first meeting touched my heart and my life indeed, the only guy I call "bestest friend", my only best guy friend.I would really love to shout his name but he would not appreciate it I know. This guy has been my favorite topic in every conversation I would take in my everyday life.

At this very statement I am writing, you would no doubt say that I am in love with this certain Mr. M. I won't be ashamed of saying "Yes, you are right." I love to admit that I am stupidly in love with a guy who can't return the love I give. What's the matter anyway? We are okay and as long as we are okay in our standing as friends, I will always remain as the "most stupid insane martyr girl" in his life. I don't care what other people would say or how they would react in my stupidity. The point is that I know where to be happy and that I am happy in his assuaging company.

I love him the way that anybody would do just for a guy.

"What the heck?" others might bumble. You care? It's my life and it is a matter of finding my happiness. I know, you'd still not agree with me. But what can I do? I can't resist or stop myself of loving someone who loves another girl. I am happy, that's all.:(

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I do accept advice from concerned citizens.:)